oh god.
mid-year's killing me seriously.
lols.
ENGLISH AND CHINESE as well as HISTORY really sucks.
they suck a lot.
omg.
hope i didn't flunk them.
lols.
art was omgish.
i chionged it last minute for the prep work.
lols.
and my invigilator was so vulgar.
the most vulgar teacher i've ever seen.
i mean he's not exactly vulgar la.
he kept disturbing us and say "wa liao".
until now, in sec school i mean, i didn't hear a teacher saying that.
lols. next sem he's going to be our IT teacher.
going to be fun yeah.
lols. he's quite good.
he gave us 5 minutes earlier to do the mid-year paper.
i know it's just 5 minutes but other teachers i guess they won't allow us to start even 1 minute earlier la.
lols. 4 MORE PAPERS TO GO.
literature, don't need to say.
i cofirm flunk it de.
lols. aiya, i don't care ler.
tomorrow geog and d&t.
-.- sianzs.
lols. need to memorise.
HAIIS.
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both of you don't have to tell me what to do, yeah?
i know what i am doing.
stop telling me what to do.
and brianwash me too.
cause i won't listen a single thing you said.
and i don't wish to waste your saliva.
i can't believe you guys said this to me.
i thought you WERE my friends.
but i guess i was wrong all the time.
call me daddy's girl or whatever.
i am the one in deep trouble,
not you.
of course you guys don't give a damn.
try someone calling you that.
i know you won't even bother.
cause you are some people with no feelings at all.
if you do, you wouldn't call me that at all.
i've tolerated for so many months,
yet i didn't say a single thing.
projects everything i do.
you guys didn't even bother.
so why should i bother about you guys?
i wanted to study,
that's my problem.
you don't have to brainwash me and start telling me that it's okay,
that exam was like on that day blahblah so you don't have to study.
and you,
you always lie to me.
i don't even know when you are saying the truth or not.
i really don't believe you at all.
remember that time when you said UL said something to you?
actually,
i don't believe it at all.
i am not sucking up to you guys.
but i thought you were my first friends in this school.
i thought i was wrong about you guys.
but i'm not.
i saw the true you.
you guys just don't seem to understand me at all.
why bother being my friends?
i really wanted very badly to end this friendship.
but i don't dare to.
what if something very wrong happened?
oh god,
i'm very confused now.
you are my VERY VERY FIRST FRIEND in this class.
but you just don't seem to understand me at all.
she's just trying to attract other people's attention,
can't you tell?
maybe,
i can just commit sucide,
and die.
so i don't have to worry about these at all.
what i want now,
is that you guys stop trying to act in front of me,
because i know you guys really hate me.
i'm trying very hard to aviod you,
but i just can't.
it looks like coming to this school is a bad choice after all.
i should've gone to other schools,
so that i won't meet you guys,
and let you hurt my feelings,
and me saying nothing at all.
6B was so much better,
i really hope and wish that time will just stop there,
and don't move on at all.
only my friends there really understand me.
now that i'm posting this,
i hope you guys know who you are.
just stop hurting my feelings anymore,
and let me live through this year.
can you?
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